A DANCER'S SILHOUETTE

Across the wall dances her shadow... Never letting her dreams go away...

Watching closely her silhouette... Refusing to forget... 

Though her spirits slowly falling... Cuz, they''ll never understand her hearts true calling...

They tell her what to do...& she tries to simply move on...

But, her desires are never really gone.. Why do they refuse to let her pursue her dreams..

Every night, she cries cause they've ripped at her happiness.. & then she starts to slip she just wants to fade to a place...

A place where permission is not needed to let her body go, where not just her silhouette is a dance.. But she is as well, somewhere she can be free to move..as she may please..

She wants one chance...to take a shot at freedom... To dance... Freedom for more than just her heart, her soul,

her silhouette...to move!!

~ By: Kassandre Renee

TO EVERY GIRL....

To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because, she has been hurt by too many.To every girl that has been cheated on, because she's not a slut who gives it up to any guy. To every girl that dresses cute, not sleazy.To every girl who wants to be called beautiful, not sexy.To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present just for you. To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose that bitch instead. To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend who loves her eternally.To every girl who would just once like to be treated like a princess. To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak. To every girl that just wants to hold hands. To every girl that kisses him with meaning. To every girl who thinks that she has the most amazing friends in the world.

To every girl who just wishes he a little cared more. To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their hoodie when they are cold. To every girl who wants him to just call her. To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him. To every girl that just wants to cuddle. To every girl that just wants to sleep with him without having sex. To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back. To every girl that thought "Maybe he could be the one". To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually doesn't think it is funny. To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way. To every girl that doesn't want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels. To every girl who wants words backed up with actions. To every girl that fell for all the lies only to find herself all alone in the end. To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face. To every girl who believes that "Tomorrow is another better day." 

17.03.2012~ JAB WE MET

It had been 5 months almost since I met Shahid. Yeah, I did see him a couple of times. Even stalked him once, his range! & he actually waved me :D

But, I’d made this beautiful scrapbook for him & even gotten him his favorite hoodie for his bday.. Which I couldn’t give him on 25th cuz he was in Goa! But, I was sure to meet him & give it to him! So, I went to Raj Classic at about 12. I knew somehow that he was at home.

I reached there & I met mamu, he said Shahid is sleeping cuz he came back from night shoot at 7am! & I felt like shit whyyy. I tried convincing him, but dint work. I was there till 3 or smth. But, ultimately I intercomed Shiv &sent over the gift & scrapbook to him. I wasn’t sure if it would reach Shahid :P

I lost all hopes, but… All these lovely people on twitter encouraged me soo much! So, I went back. Somebody told me Shahid will be coming out now. I waited till 4 or smth. Then, he came in his red as sexy as him jaguar! I followed him. I was sure he knew somebodys following him :D

Then, he reached the gym. He came out looking so hot, so cute, so ripped. With his new wirless bearts, his bag, & his glares making him look so much more hotter.

He got out of the car & I stopped him.

SHAHID SHAHID.

He looked back, said OH HEY

aaah the way he looked at me <3

All I was saying was, Im so sorry sorry sorry I stalked u.

hes smiling sooo muchhh

He replied so awesomely.. NOTHING HAPPENS ITS OKAY!

then, I asked him did u get the gifts?

He said SORRY NO

I told him I gave it to shiv..

He said OH, ILL CHECK FOR SURE

 I asked him if he remembered me?!

He was smiling sooo much since he saw me.. All the time.. Smiling smiling.. It was hard to actually figure out why :P

But, then he said YES OF COURSE

And I was like yaaayyyyy he knows me now haha.. then I quickly asked for a picture cuz he was in a hurry & there I met him again for the 4th time

I’ve been saying this all the time!! There’s surely nobody like him.. Just nobody! He has the sweetest soul on earth..

& now, I wish that I meet him again :P & get to continue my jab we met :D hehe 

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08.09.2011~ JAB WE MET

It was almost 2 months since I had met him.. this time I was 10000% sure i will meet him! On 07.09 the Mausam music success bash was supossed to happen at JW marriot. But, it got cancelled & I was quite sad.. But, then next day I got to know its happening! Luckily, I stay quite close to the venue so I reached there at 7pm! I waited for almost 3 hours or so.. Sonam &her family, Shahid’s family were there already..with all of the media.. But, there was no clue of where Shahid was!! Some said he came from a secret entry.. Some said he isn’t coming.. I dint know what to do! 

But, finally he came.. I saw his Range, coming close & close & closer to where I was!! I was super duper excited! All I knew was I wanted a hug :D & an autograph on my Mausam audio CD. 

he stepped out of his car…*thhhuuudd* he looked soooo handsome like seriously he looked beautiful, perfect hair, formals..that too blaaack!! OHHHH SHAHIDDDD

He dint notice I was there, as it is he was running late. So, I just called him SHAHID SHAHID.

He still dint notice. He went inside. I was sooo pissed, I dint know what to do. But, he came back! OHHHH SHIIIT! He came back & said OH HELLO.

I was dying inside, he came to meet me! OMGGGGGG

I dint know what to say, but after 5secs all I said was Shahid, your looking very hot, i love u..

He replied very casually, (obviously he knows hes sexy :P) HAHA, THANK U!

I told him to sign the CD. He did it & he was about to leave. I just told him, can I get a hug again?

& this guy, this lovely guy in the whole universe immediately hugged me for almost 2seconds & gave a widddeeeee smileee to me & walked away.. Before I could actually ask him for a picture.. Or something.. But, I was content, to know how awesome can a guy be! There is nobody like him. There wouldn’t be anybody in fact! He is the sweetest guy. A guy with so much of personna & cuteness! 

That was the 3rd time I met him& 2nd time that I hugged him.

I wish someday he could read all of this haha.

11.07.2011~ JAB WE MET

It all started when I came to know that Mausam’s trailer launch is happening in town. I was so happy!!! I soo expected I’d be getting to meet Shahid & give him all the luck&wishes for the movie. Also, meeting him again was like a dreaaaamm comee true! This time, I wasn’t nervous like before. I knew I wouldn’t faint or scream or cry haha. But, then Shahid & Sonam tweeted about it. That was the time when I felt like ohh noo, soo manyy fans would be there.
I reached there in a pink dress, I don’t know why but I just thought Shahid likes me in pink LOL.
At the PVR ticket counter, got my entry tickets. I was there before time!
As the time passed, anxiety grew more&more. It was all set. I reached the audi. Met parull, told her how excited I am to meet him. But, she said its not possible today. But, I had decided I will meet him & hug him! SHAHIDDDD CAAAMEEE
I sawww himmm! OMG! bas, now I had to meet him :D
The trailer was shown twice, all of us went all gaga over it… That time, all I knew was Shahid did work really heard for thiss one!! After that was the media interaction.. I thought he will interact with us too! But, that dint happen& they all left.. I felt soo stupid.. I really wanted to meet him man..
So, I got this idea to stand where his range was & there he came.
But, agaain, so many people standing to meet him! He came into the crowd & was about to get into the car! I was like WTF! dudeee! Then, parull actually stopped him & took me next to him! OMFG! OHH HEEYY ISHITA! HELLOO. I couldn’t speak shiiiiit he remembered meeeeee!!! he actually remembere my naaamee!!! & he said it.. OH MAAAN!!!
& then, he actually approached me to shake hand! OHH FREEAAK!
he looks so happy, meeting me haha :DI just told him all the best for Mausam, loved the trailer, cant wait anymore. Love u! & he replied,THANK U MUCH LOVEI was dyinggggggggggggg!!! & he said GOODBYEAll I wanted was a hug I asked for it & OMFG OMFG he said, YES SURE!okaaayy okaay I had to calm down, he hugged meee OMFG! I felt like I was somewhere in heaven.. It was only me&him..
yayayyayayyayyy! i got a hug :DAnd then the after effects of being hugged by Shahid continued for days.. His fragrance.. His touch.. Aaah..
Nobody can be as awesome as him. This guy has a heart of gold. Shahid, love you till eterenity!
& with the satisfaction that he actually hugged me, morever he knew me mattered the most.. This day will be always cherished..& never ever to be forgotten!

26.02.2011~ JAB WE MET

Still remember. The meet and greet contest that took place in January. I actually hurried up and filled the form. Annd, the questions were as easy as they could have ever been. Was so excited, yet low of expectations. Hoping to win the contest. After few days, the bollywood hungama people said, the meet and greet is cancelled! Annnd SHAAATTTEREEDDD was the only expresssion :(

After a few days, again, they released the promo of meet and greet! Annndd OOHHH EEEM GEE SHAHIDDDDD

Naturally, I studied concentrating on Shahid haha! Then, waiting waiting finaally the day came 25th FEBRUARYYYY *dishh dissh* 12 am. My tweet to him :D Annd those phone rings :P

I soon tweeted for an hour and went of to sleep. 

25th FEBRUARY — 5:28pm :) 

My cell vibrated :D :D

Someone on the phone, who said,”HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” He was a guy, Im like I dont know you. But, hey thanks anyways.

then, he said, “Ishita!” I was like *thuuuuuuuuuuudddd* yes…andd he said, Tmr is gonna be the best day of your life! 

*BUTTERFLIESSS*

he said, your invited to the meet and greet with Shahid!!!!!

I was like WTF! OMG! Am I actually dreaming??! Shahid & Me & The bday :D WOO-HOO!!!!!

Soon, the day passed. every secondd was full of excitement! Had to give up a test on 26th! WHAT DO I DO?! I studied for 3 hourss and scored 28 on 40 haha! :P Shahid is surely the lucky charm ;)

26th FEBRUARY — 5 pm :)

TIK TOK TIK TOK TIK TOK!I reached at the venue ~ KINO 108 :D

Andd with that half crooked excited happpy smile on my face, walked in and sat to believe that I am actually gonna meet him maan! :D

And finally 6:38pm HE CAME!!!!!!!

I saw him. couldnt actually faint or cry or smile or screaaam! So, i sat down with that expression of OMG! with my mouth open for almost 5mins.

There he came, with the million dollar smile, lookin super hot, super cute and dashing!

with those hot sunglasses and that watch!

Then, finally, he sat right in front of me.

As usual, fassst heartbeatss. Then, he started talkin to each one of us!

The best moment was when he said OHH AW HAPPY BIRTHDAY! YOUR BORN ONLY WITH ME? CHALO, GOOD STUFF :D

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnd I was like SHIT SHIT SHIT he wished me :D 

Then, the question I asked…

BIGGEST BIGGEST BDAY GIFT YOU’VE EVER GOT?

He said, Last year on my bday when my father gifted me the script of Mausam :)

and I was like AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Then, when he cut the cake. I actually said it loud, SHAHID CAN I CUT THE CAKE TOO?

And that sweet voice came, yes sure, come, hold my hand!!!!!!! ohhhh my shahid!

THIS COULDNT GET BETTER ANYMOREE :D

then, I clicked that pic with him…

He actually put his arm around my back(anddd the feeling

This was the day I met Shahid!

And Im sure I wont forget it everrr!

Shahid and Ishita :D I can never ever forget this moment!

EYE TO EYE CONTACT :Dwhen he said ohh! HAPPY BDAY<3 OMG!!

when he looked at me <3 eeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppp!

An open letter to SRK - My Ra.One review.

Dear Shah Rukh Khan,
                                   Firstly hearty congratulations for the super opening of your movie at the BO, really hope that your able to recover back all the money you wasted or rather spent I'd say on this movie. The cheery on the cake being you taking a risk by dreaming to make a superhero sci-fi movie like this!
                                    Coming back to the movie, its a huge disappointment..but don't you worry because the Indians are used to of watching & wasting their money on such not-so-great movies. But, your movie is surely better than the super sci-fi movies like Love Story 2050. Considering, the amount of time you've spent in promoting your movie even with Volkswagen, I'd rather wish you could have spent that time on making your movie look better :) Your marketing team has done a great job by keeping a buzz among every single person, eventually by the end of it, people said.. "PLEASE WE ARE GOING TO WATCH RA.ONE"
                                     The few action scenes in the movie took my heart away & also Kareena Kapoor did her best to sizzle on the screen donning the Chammak Challo avatar. The much-talked about villain of the movie, Ra.one (Arjun Rampal) deserves to be given whole of the credit bonus, though bechara he didn't get much of the screen time! I think you should have named your movie G.One & not Ra.One, as it only revolves around the superhero & not the red-eyed villain. The director (Anubhav Sinha) whom you hired to do a 150 crore project? yes, I agree his film was named CASH but let me remind you unfortunately it didn't earn cash at the BO!
                                     Talking about the music, Vishal-Shekhar did a good job. But, all thanks to Akon & Kareena that at least one song (Chammak Challo) was a superhit. Dildaara didn't become anybodys dil ka daara & Raftaarein was a good song though not meeting the expectations of songs to be of such a highly waited, anticipated movie. Also, thanks to Mr.Ganesh Hegde he made Criminal the best B-grade party song of the yearssss! Only focusing on steps related to BUM BUM BUM! Priyanka Chopra, Sanjay Dutt & Rajnikanth himself the superstar couldn't help you in making it a superhit movie.
                                     In the end, your charismatic charm did work. But, your decision of wearing that creepy wig in the start was too bad. I'd say that you didn't make a bad effort & the experiment was a nice one, however do what suits you.
                                                                                                                                    Your's lovingly,
                                                                                                                                     A fan.
** (2) stars out of 5